Reason

I only seem to have external reasons for plodding away.
 Not that I am exclusively, externally motivated. 
 Just that I feel I am cracking up under everything.
 For now, those external reasons will carry me on until things lighten up and I can look inside me again.


 I'm thankful for sweet, amazing neighbors who snow blow 18 cm of snow off my sidewalk so I have one less thing to do.
 I'm thankful for an unbelievably supportive, funny, and smart husband who makes supper and does the dishes so I can go to bed at 8pm
 I'm thankful for delightful children who say "mama did you take grumpy pills?" and make me laugh.
 I'm thankful for a comical and adorable dog who keeps laughter coming even when shit is ugly.
I'm thankful for friends who understand when I have to disappear for a while.
 I'm thankful for a job that allows me to earn a living, whilst doing something enjoyable and having the hours I need to be most available for my family.
 Weekends...I'm thankful for weekends when I don't have to get up and run, when I can just laze around in my jamma's and drink coffee and sew and crochet.
 I'm thankful for kids who love to sleep in on weekends.  *sorry, I hope that doesn't induce jealousy*
 I'm thankful for java, coffee, the sweet elixir of the gods, without which, my foggy, fumblings would be much extended.
 I'm thankful that this list of thankfulness I started, to try and make myself get off the couch, is much longer than I expected it to be.